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ART AS METAMORPHOSIS
Human fragility, grief and spaces of emotional refuge.
Text and illustrations: Silvia Ortiz
Art like that refuge, the sphere in which you chew, ruminate, swallow, expose yourself, regurgitate, vomit, pick up that vomit and swallow it again ... you vomit pain, tears, fear, emptiness, hopelessness, soon after gradually turn them into beauty that soothes, that expands like a light balm, with the smell of the sea and the forest, like a caress to life and to those shocked emotional worlds, where pains are relocated, consciousness expands, and takes protagonism open and wide fragility as my greatest strength.
Thus, this is how I have been torn apart and recomposed all the bodies that contain me in the transit of my duel with BR, where watercolor painting (water as a primary connection), theater, dance, artisan binding and music , they have given me back the integral desire as the engine that drives me.
In the initial part of my duel, I came up with painting BR in different ways, with all the meanings that his inscription whispered to me on my skin, in my smell, my mouth, my eyes, my ears. Then I started with the self-portrait, I drew myself exposing the desire for my mundane, emotional, subtle and delicate imaginary worlds.
And so, little by little, the pain, the longing, the desire, the dreams with Her were distilled.
This writing, more than a treatise on art and mourning, is a naked confession of the guts, of the passage from the deep dark and cold hole, to the reflection of my emotional world, identifying why and how I went to those depths of fusion and illusionism in a space of "neglect" of my feminist alert state. It is what the constructions of emotions have, which are cultural and contain us, even with the theoretical-practical work of the deconstruction of the framework of "Romantic love" and its subtle violence.
I continue with my confession
Now, in my distillation process there is a lot of love, gratitude and respect for BR He has been and continues to be a great Love in my life, a wonderful person with whom I had the great luck and pleasure of meeting her along the way and learning a lot from myself. with her.
Infinite thanks to life and the transforming power of art, which has generated spaces and abstract worlds for me to re-find myself and continue in my process of self-knowledge and tenderness.
